Monday, November 28, 2016

Starting Over

Yep, I have to start again and fight the dread healthy battle. I am getting way too close to the highest number ever on the scale.

I don't know if I just let go too much...
Or if my thyroid is contributing (my levels are all over the place and the moron MD won't talk about what causes that... just says "no medicine" - I don't want medicine, you idiot!)...

But I am hitting the weight loss journey again...
And believe me, I'm not happy about it...
Actually sitting here in tears over it.

My focus can't be the 10K Steps a day (though I am going to try to do that too) as I gained about 25lbs the last time I just focused on that.

So, I am asking for some prayers.
Lots of then actually.

Living in a house where everyone else can eat whatever they want and I am stuck with plain chicken and vegetables (and I have to cook all of the food everyone else gets to eat) frankly is quite depressing.

That coupled with losing my dad and our upcoming move, I'm a little worried about how I am going to get through this.

Namaste.

Sunday, October 09, 2016

6 Years...

Happy Anniversary MBB - Love you with all that I have!









Namaste.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Amazing Song!

So love this version...















Namaste.

Monday, September 26, 2016

Tired of It Already...

I am so tired of the political season...
I am so irritated at the list that I have to chose from in a few weeks...


You see, I am an Independent.
I don't affiliate with either joke of a party.


I wait until we get down to the final ballet and then I start researching and finding out the facts.
I don't listen to the political ads.
I don't watch the debates.
I don't want to be entertained, I want to be informed.


I will vote.
It is my duty as an American.


Unfortunately this year, I'll be voting for the lesser of the two evils...
Once I figure out who that is anyway.


Namaste.


**This was written as many of you were being entertained by the joke of a debate.
**Writing this and getting caught up on some blogging was my alternative entertainment.

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Amazement

I am so in love with three little men who I call my grandsons.


Never have I ever felt the love that I feel for them.


I am constantly amazed by how they are growing and developing into their own unique personalities.
To hear "Me love you Nana" or "MY NANA" or see the baby's eyes just light up when he sees me...
Yeah, I am truly blessed...


And I won't let idiots who live by labels change any of that!


Namaste.

Monday, September 12, 2016

Unexpected Goodbye...

When I was small, I had a void in my life...
I had no Dad.





There a man who had a void in his life...
He had two sons, but no daughter.





The two voids met and became "step family" by law.





When a judge eliminated the "step" - sheer will, stubbornness and love kept the "family".





I was blessed to have my dad for 36 years. 23 of them by our choice.





It has been 19 days since I got the call.
It has been 10 days since I said goodbye.





I am only now able to write this without sobbing.





I guess it is only fitting in my mind that I write this on an airplane as that is what I was boarding when I found out.
Then I had to get on two more planes to get back home. 



I shed a lot of tears on those flights.





And I still mourn.
And I still love.
And now I have a hole in my heart like none that I have ever experienced.





But I know my dad is still alive as he lives on in my memories and the impact that he had on my life.





He taught me that a child could be born in my heart and not in my belly.
He taught me that I shouldn't let anyone else dictate who my family is. 
He taught me that blood is not thicker than water and it does not take a piece of paper to "make it real".





I love you Dad.
I hope your dancing...















Namaste.

Sunday, September 11, 2016

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Life lesson

**Written on 5/22 from my phone so keeping that date, though I never logged into blogger to post**

I am working on a new focus...

Not how important I am to people, but how important they are to me.
The only thing that matters is how I view myself.

To do that, I have a lot of a hard pills to swallow.
To realize that your level of commitment is not equally reciprocated...

Sometimes it hurts, but it is reality.
Sometimes it isn't healthy, but it is reality.
Sometimes things can remain the same with a new outlook and other times, things have to change to go on.

To be able to focus on my own thoughts and feelings rather than others is my new goal.
I have shed a lot of tears over this one with some, but I have also started to distance myself with others.

Namaste.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Traditions...

I am big on traditions and big on treating people equally...
That means that all of my grandchildren get a quilt made by Nana...
 
Baby Brother is no different...

Though, I am still trying to figure out how I can live in KENTUCKY and could not find any fabric with HORSES on it!  So, while I was hoping for horses, I ended up with deer and other wildlife instead.
 
 
 
Namaste.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Billiards...

Yes, I play pool...
Yes, I believe that it is a challenge...
Yes, I have gotten better...
Yes, I am proud of that...
 
 
Namaste.