Saturday, May 14, 2016

Traditions...

I am big on traditions and big on treating people equally...
That means that all of my grandchildren get a quilt made by Nana...
 
Baby Brother is no different...

Though, I am still trying to figure out how I can live in KENTUCKY and could not find any fabric with HORSES on it!  So, while I was hoping for horses, I ended up with deer and other wildlife instead.
 
 
 
Namaste.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Billiards...

Yes, I play pool...
Yes, I believe that it is a challenge...
Yes, I have gotten better...
Yes, I am proud of that...
 
 
Namaste. 

Monday, May 09, 2016

Pool Rules

I don't know where this came from (was a share of a share on Facebook)...
But I thought this was worth reading again and again...
 
Not sure how many others will find value, but my value is my #1 priority. :)
 
 
 
 
Namaste. 

Sunday, May 08, 2016

Mommy's Day

I have to admit that this day is hard for me...

Yes, I was able to help raise my hubby's kids and I am extremely grateful for that.
I am also blessed to be called Nana and that is one of my favorite things to hear!

But, I let go of my dream of having my own babies and for that I need to take a moment.
And just let myself feel.

Preferably without a quart of ice cream.

Namaste.

Saturday, May 07, 2016

Found One...

So, a few weeks ago...
Most of clothes don't fit and my thyroid levels are all over the place...
I realized that I just needed to be miserable and take care of it by myself.
 
In doing so, I have been searching for some things that make it a little less miserable...
 
The "snack" that I have found that I like the most is the one that appears to be the hardest to find.
I have had to give money to a co-worker to buy them for me... :(
 
But, they make me feel like I had a treat and don't kill my calorie tracking...
Which is a VERY good thing.
 
And no, CLIF did not pay me to say that. 
They probably don't even know that my little blog even exists.
 
 
Namaste. 
 

Friday, May 06, 2016

Ouch

My head is spinning...

I don't know which way is up...
Or down...

Some weeks, I'm not even sure what day it is or where I am...
No lie - I've had to ask hotel workers...

I achieved a professional goal...
Sometimes, I question if it was the right path and other times, I am extremely excited...
That along with all of the personal changes occurring now...
Yeah - I won't bore you.

In the end - it is what it is and I am going to have to try very hard to make everything work.
Part of that is being able to cry just to cry...
And getting mental breaks...

The only ways that I know to do that is to read a good series (I have run out of those) and to blog about mindless things.  You know - not my problems, but just stuff to get my mind off of everything for awhile.

I really need to figure out how to blog on my phone better.
That will be fun right now as auto correct and I are not getting along right now.

I know that I have said that about blogging before...
But I wasn't this close to anxiety and panic attacks becoming a daily friend before either.

I am on a mission to get my brain straightened out. 
Along with the physical.
I've given up on the spiritual fixes right now.  :(
I will just maintain there where I am.

A few prayers and crossed fingers would be greatly appreciated.

Namaste.

Thursday, March 31, 2016

Rough

Over the years, I have found this blog to be a good place to get stuff off of my chest.
Since I am never sure who is reading what, I have always been vague, but it helped.

Now, I struggle with finding the time to put thoughts to keys...
And my life has become much bigger with more people involved.

Going back to my earlier statement, I am never sure who is ready what, which now keeps me from using this blog as an outlet. 

And it is an outlet that I would be helpful right now.
The anxiety is coming back, but luckily I recognize the symptoms...
I tear up at the drop of a hat...
I feel helpless and confused...
I am becoming a hot mess.


Namaste.

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Kaizening

So,  I have had times when I really want to blog,  but am not near the computer.
Then,  when I am near the computer...I usually don't feel like thinking about what I want to write about.
 
So tonight, I decided to get some thoughts into the blogger app on my phone, but not worry about making it look nice and publishing. 
 
Hopefully, when I am near the computer,  I will be ok just making things look pretty and not having to create from scratch.
 
We shall see.
 
And...this was drafted over a month ago and is just not being put out there.
Yep...Didn't work.
 
Namaste.

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Bed Jet

We decided to support a Kickstarter campaign and bought a bed jet unit.
We also splurged on the sheet and I must say that it was so worth the money!
 
MBB can pick his temperature (usually cooler) to run all night and I pick mine (usually warmer) to stop after a few hours.
 
The flexibility is great and we love it!
 
Namaste.

Monday, March 14, 2016

Love It

A few years ago (yes, it was documented in this blog), I finished my dream bathroom in my condo.
Then I met MBB and moved.

One of the requests that I had when we bought the house was a Master Bathroom.
Seven years later, I finally got my second dream bathroom.
And next year, we will be moving again.  :(
 
Namaste.