Thursday, March 31, 2016


Over the years, I have found this blog to be a good place to get stuff off of my chest.
Since I am never sure who is reading what, I have always been vague, but it helped.

Now, I struggle with finding the time to put thoughts to keys...
And my life has become much bigger with more people involved.

Going back to my earlier statement, I am never sure who is ready what, which now keeps me from using this blog as an outlet. 

And it is an outlet that I would be helpful right now.
The anxiety is coming back, but luckily I recognize the symptoms...
I tear up at the drop of a hat...
I feel helpless and confused...
I am becoming a hot mess.


Wednesday, March 30, 2016


So,  I have had times when I really want to blog,  but am not near the computer.
Then,  when I am near the computer...I usually don't feel like thinking about what I want to write about.
So tonight, I decided to get some thoughts into the blogger app on my phone, but not worry about making it look nice and publishing. 
Hopefully, when I am near the computer,  I will be ok just making things look pretty and not having to create from scratch.
We shall see.
And...this was drafted over a month ago and is just not being put out there.
Yep...Didn't work.

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Bed Jet

We decided to support a Kickstarter campaign and bought a bed jet unit.
We also splurged on the sheet and I must say that it was so worth the money!
MBB can pick his temperature (usually cooler) to run all night and I pick mine (usually warmer) to stop after a few hours.
The flexibility is great and we love it!

Monday, March 14, 2016

Love It

A few years ago (yes, it was documented in this blog), I finished my dream bathroom in my condo.
Then I met MBB and moved.

One of the requests that I had when we bought the house was a Master Bathroom.
Seven years later, I finally got my second dream bathroom.
And next year, we will be moving again.  :(

Friday, March 04, 2016


I came home from the hospital tonight to see six deer in my side yard.
It is hard to make them out, but there are five in the very blurry picture that I tried to take. I think one for scared and ran while I was turning my car around to spotlight them.

Wednesday, March 02, 2016

Embarrassed and Excited

I hate to admit failure.
I despise not being able to take care of myself.
But, I guess the silver lining is that I did know where my breaking point was.
And I was there.
So,  I swallowed my pride and am now paying someone else to clean my house.
In the end, it won't save me any time (yep,  I didn't have the time to do the cleaning... which was the problem), but it will save my sanity and reduce my stress. 
I still have to stay on top of the laundry, the cooking (what little gets done there) and the unloading of the dishwasher...
And we decided that we were going to keep the den and the master bedroom clean on our own. 
Yeah, wish us luck with that one.

Friday, February 26, 2016

Welcome Baby Brother

The Lord has blessed us once again.
Our this grand son arrived on February 24th and though he was a bit early, he has a fighting spirit.

Tuesday, January 05, 2016


I do not do well being in limbo...
This should not be a surprise to any of you.

I am in limbo right now in multiple areas of my life.
I won't take offense if you feel the need to run for cover...

I typed out a long blog post about everything going on...
And it bored me.  Imagine how you would feel?

Any whoo...
It doesn't look like I'll be getting any stability in the near future, so I am trying to get better about being in limbo.

Wish me luck!


Monday, January 04, 2016

New Adventures at the Big T

I have been blessed with am opportunity to grow and develop at work.
Some nights,  I wake up in a cold sweat wondering what I got myself into and other days...
I practically run into work excited to tackle it all...
The change won't be complete until the end of June, so I have time to grow,  learn and prepare.
Fingers crossed.

Sunday, January 03, 2016

2016 Goals

I took a few days to really think about what I wanted to focus on this year...

Honestly, with an upcoming change at work, there will be LOTS for me to focus on there...
But, I do want to improve on some things personally as well.

So, here goes...

I think this is where most of my focus is going to be this year.
-Drink More Water!!!  64 oz minimum, but more is better.
-Improve the Nightly Routine!!!  I've gotten into a bad habit of falling into bed.  So, I am going to try to spend about five minutes in the bathroom taking care of things that are important.

I do not think I'm ready to find a new spiritual home this year, especially with the move in 2017.
-Find a spiritual book to read and study.  Maybe something by Wayne Dwyer or another Unity fave.  Suggestions welcomed

I think I'm going to use up most of my mental strength at work this year...
-Sleep!!! Yes, I know that this could be physical too, but I don't think I'll make it mentally without it.  I am targeting 6 hours minimum a night, but 8 is better.

And though I don't consider these goals anymore (they are truly a part of the normal routine), I will still be tracking my 10K steps a day (my fitbit is charging right next to me right now) and 12 Books for the year.

What are your goals?
Not resolutions...