Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Amazing Song!

So love this version...















Namaste.

Monday, September 26, 2016

Tired of It Already...

I am so tired of the political season...
I am so irritated at the list that I have to chose from in a few weeks...


You see, I am an Independent.
I don't affiliate with either joke of a party.


I wait until we get down to the final ballet and then I start researching and finding out the facts.
I don't listen to the political ads.
I don't watch the debates.
I don't want to be entertained, I want to be informed.


I will vote.
It is my duty as an American.


Unfortunately this year, I'll be voting for the lesser of the two evils...
Once I figure out who that is anyway.


Namaste.


**This was written as many of you were being entertained by the joke of a debate.
**Writing this and getting caught up on some blogging was my alternative entertainment.

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Amazement

I am so in love with three little men who I call my grandsons.


Never have I ever felt the love that I feel for them.


I am constantly amazed by how they are growing and developing into their own unique personalities.
To hear "Me love you Nana" or "MY NANA" or see the baby's eyes just light up when he sees me...
Yeah, I am truly blessed...


And I won't let idiots who live by labels change any of that!


Namaste.

Monday, September 12, 2016

Unexpected Goodbye...

When I was small, I had a void in my life...
I had no Dad.





There a man who had a void in his life...
He had two sons, but no daughter.





The two voids met and became "step family" by law.





When a judge eliminated the "step" - sheer will, stubbornness and love kept the "family".





I was blessed to have my dad for 36 years. 23 of them by our choice.





It has been 19 days since I got the call.
It has been 10 days since I said goodbye.





I am only now able to write this without sobbing.





I guess it is only fitting in my mind that I write this on an airplane as that is what I was boarding when I found out.
Then I had to get on two more planes to get back home. 



I shed a lot of tears on those flights.





And I still mourn.
And I still love.
And now I have a hole in my heart like none that I have ever experienced.





But I know my dad is still alive as he lives on in my memories and the impact that he had on my life.





He taught me that a child could be born in my heart and not in my belly.
He taught me that I shouldn't let anyone else dictate who my family is. 
He taught me that blood is not thicker than water and it does not take a piece of paper to "make it real".





I love you Dad.
I hope your dancing...















Namaste.

Sunday, September 11, 2016

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Life lesson

**Written on 5/22 from my phone so keeping that date, though I never logged into blogger to post**

I am working on a new focus...

Not how important I am to people, but how important they are to me.
The only thing that matters is how I view myself.

To do that, I have a lot of a hard pills to swallow.
To realize that your level of commitment is not equally reciprocated...

Sometimes it hurts, but it is reality.
Sometimes it isn't healthy, but it is reality.
Sometimes things can remain the same with a new outlook and other times, things have to change to go on.

To be able to focus on my own thoughts and feelings rather than others is my new goal.
I have shed a lot of tears over this one with some, but I have also started to distance myself with others.

Namaste.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Traditions...

I am big on traditions and big on treating people equally...
That means that all of my grandchildren get a quilt made by Nana...
 
Baby Brother is no different...

Though, I am still trying to figure out how I can live in KENTUCKY and could not find any fabric with HORSES on it!  So, while I was hoping for horses, I ended up with deer and other wildlife instead.
 
 
 
Namaste.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Billiards...

Yes, I play pool...
Yes, I believe that it is a challenge...
Yes, I have gotten better...
Yes, I am proud of that...
 
 
Namaste. 

Monday, May 09, 2016

Pool Rules

I don't know where this came from (was a share of a share on Facebook)...
But I thought this was worth reading again and again...
 
Not sure how many others will find value, but my value is my #1 priority. :)
 
 
 
 
Namaste. 

Sunday, May 08, 2016

Mommy's Day

I have to admit that this day is hard for me...

Yes, I was able to help raise my hubby's kids and I am extremely grateful for that.
I am also blessed to be called Nana and that is one of my favorite things to hear!

But, I let go of my dream of having my own babies and for that I need to take a moment.
And just let myself feel.

Preferably without a quart of ice cream.

Namaste.