Rough

Over the years, I have found this blog to be a good place to get stuff off of my chest.
Since I am never sure who is reading what, I have always been vague, but it helped.

Now, I struggle with finding the time to put thoughts to keys...
And my life has become much bigger with more people involved.

Going back to my earlier statement, I am never sure who is ready what, which now keeps me from using this blog as an outlet. 

And it is an outlet that I would be helpful right now.
The anxiety is coming back, but luckily I recognize the symptoms...
I tear up at the drop of a hat...
I feel helpless and confused...
I am becoming a hot mess.


Namaste.

Kaizening

So,  I have had times when I really want to blog,  but am not near the computer.

Then,  when I am near the computer...I usually don't feel like thinking about what I want to write about.

 

So tonight, I decided to get some thoughts into the blogger app on my phone, but not worry about making it look nice and publishing. 

 

Hopefully, when I am near the computer,  I will be ok just making things look pretty and not having to create from scratch.

 

We shall see.

 

And...this was drafted over a month ago and is just not being put out there.

Yep...Didn't work.

 

Namaste.

Bed Jet

We decided to support a Kickstarter campaign and bought a bed jet unit.

We also splurged on the sheet and I must say that it was so worth the money!

 

MBB can pick his temperature (usually cooler) to run all night and I pick mine (usually warmer) to stop after a few hours.

 

The flexibility is great and we love it!

 

Namaste.

Love It

A few years ago (yes, it was documented in this blog), I finished my dream bathroom in my condo.

Then I met MBB and moved.

One of the requests that I had when we bought the house was a Master Bathroom.

Seven years later, I finally got my second dream bathroom.

And next year, we will be moving again.  :(

 

Namaste. 

Nature

I came home from the hospital tonight to see six deer in my side yard.

 

It is hard to make them out, but there are five in the very blurry picture that I tried to take. I think one for scared and ran while I was turning my car around to spotlight them.

 

Namaste. 

Embarrassed and Excited

I hate to admit failure.
I despise not being able to take care of myself.

But, I guess the silver lining is that I did know where my breaking point was.

 

And I was there.

 

So,  I swallowed my pride and am now paying someone else to clean my house.

 

In the end, it won't save me any time (yep,  I didn't have the time to do the cleaning... which was the problem), but it will save my sanity and reduce my stress. 

I still have to stay on top of the laundry, the cooking (what little gets done there) and the unloading of the dishwasher...

 

And we decided that we were going to keep the den and the master bedroom clean on our own. 

Yeah, wish us luck with that one.

 

Namaste.