Ever...

Ever had one of those days when things just seem dark?
When things from the past seem to be visiting again, without an invitation?
Ever felt like things were stuck in limbo?
When it feels like running in slow motion?

Yeah, me too.

Namaste.

New Recipe

A recipe came across my blog feed the other day. . .

Breakfast Cookies

I decided to give it a try.

The verdict?

I'll be making them again.

Both MBB thought they were "interesting" and OB decided that they tasted like a "breakfast" food.

The best part? 55 calories for one.

Yes, I figured up the calories as they were baking. :)

Namaste.

Wordless Wednesday. . .

Namaste.

Wordless Wednesday. . .

Namaste.

Stuff

Stuff has felt a little different lately. . .
Can't exactly put my thumb on it, but I have lots of thoughts running through my brain.
I guess this is the time when I crack open the scull and let stuff just fall out.

I am trying to get back to taking care of myself physically.
It's been awhile since I did that and believe me, my body is yelling at me for ignoring it for so long.
It does, sometimes, feel good to get back into a groove.
Unfortunately, I won't be able to do cardio the next few days since we are having the mudding / sanding done in the exercise room.
Yeah for having someone else do the mudding and sanding!
Boo to no cardio!
I did do butt springs tonight - not sure how good of a replacement that was though.

I have been trying to increase the information in my brain a bit.
I read.
I have always read.
I have always read extremely fast.
I am now reading the Steve Job biography which is NOT a fast read.
Very unusual for me.
I have the newest Jillian Michaels book.
Had to stop after the first chapter as there is "work" to do first and my brain said no.

I have been trying to eat a bit more healthy.
Lets not talk about what I ate for lunch today.
Seriously.

I have been struggling with my email address.
It is a spin-off of my old name, which I thought would be good even when it wasn't anymore.
It is now starting to bother me.
Every time I type it.
Which is A LOT.
Can you say email, google calenders, google reader, facebook, grocery iq (just to name a few)?
It just doesn't feel right anymore.
I know that some would be easy to change, but others. . .
Not so much.
I am really debating if it is worth all of the trouble.

I also find myself flustered a lot lately.
> Changes at work. . .
> Multiple changes at work. . .
> Drifting away from those I used to be close to. . .
> Headaches coming from the school district area. . .
> Unanswered emails. . .
> A cracked laptop screen. . .
> Letters that really need to be written, but I can't find the right words. . .
> Trying to live in the now and be grateful for what I have - easier said than done!
Yeah, just a little flustered.

Namaste.

Grateful...

I'm feeling grateful today, which has not been the norm lately.
In fact, I probably haven't felt this since before Thanksgiving.
It feels good.

I have a clean house, equipment in the exercise room that I will be visiting today, a stove that made lunch for my family, a daughter who's "I Love You" lifted my heart, a son who offered to help me this morning with no prompting, a robot who cleans my floors everyday (and has at least two lives) and a husband who does so much for me around the house (love my new kitchen light).

Not too sure what 2012 has in store, but I am going to start it the way that I intend to continue it. Gonna put some knowledge in my brain (got a few books to read), exercise my muscles and love my family.

Namaste.

Thinking

Happy 2012 to everyone in the blog world.
I hope that it finds you healthy, happy and safe.

As always, the new year tends to find a lot of goals, resolutions and reflections.
I am not one who usually does any of those.
I am not sure if I want to do them this year.
I am not sure if I don't want to do them this year.
I am in a state of flux.
So, I'll just type some thoughts from the gray matter in my head.

Goals
MBB and I have a 10 year plan financially that we worked out earlier in 2011.
We have the foundation for something we both want and I don't see a need to mess with it just because we passed GO, so to speak.
I would like to get back into the fitness arena a bit more in 2012.
Yeah I have a kinda sorta goal!
Yes, I know that it is specific enough, quantifiable, measurable, etc.
Baby steps people!

Resolutions
I despise New Year Resolutions.
To me, these are just things that become "How many days before you broke it?". . .
Just setting up everyone up for failure.
I tend to do changes in the summer when there is no pressure of day counting.
Nope, not going to do a resolution!

Reflection
I have to admit that 2011 was a very rough year for me - well a certain part of it anyway.
To be honest, there were days when I wasn't sure if the life I woke up with was the same as the one that I would finish up the day with. . .And I don't mean that in a good way.
I had "growth opportunities" both personal and professional that I was not confident that I could handle.

To be honest, I am so praying, wishing, hoping - whatever I have to do - that 2012 is better as this "certain part" was at the latter part of 2011 and I DO NOT want it seeping over into 2012.

Not to completely be one sided on 2011, I am breathing, walking, earning a paycheck and have MBB. And yes, those are big items in the positive side that tilts the balance very much to that side.

It would be nice, however, to be told that I am a big item on someone else's positive side every once in awhile. Should that be in my goal section?

Namaste.